Tuesday, December 2, 2008

IS TERROR HERE TO STAY?

Its been nearly a week now since the city was under the terror seize last Wednesday, the ordeal continued for good 60 hrs the media went all out giving “exclusive” live coverage and minute details, the way these 10 terrorists went about their attack, their route, the gore bloodbath, eyewitness accounts, we have been through it all for the last few days.
Almost everyone debating or voicing their opinions lapse in security, inadequacy on behalf of the police force in tackling terror and just how incompetent our politicians are ……..But amidst all this huge outcry and uproar we seem top have forgotten to tackle the main issues –“terrorism” all we seem or rather pretend to do is talk about it at a very surface level not one person or channel in the last few days has actually gone onto truly analyze the real reasons behind what’s happening and what’s even more frightening is the various gruesome ,hateful , violent conclusion many are coming some of which even go on to proclaim bombing Pakistan entirely , its scary to think of how people are now drawing to such conclusions and equating all of Pakistan to terrorist ,agreed we do have evidence to show and prove that these terrorist came from Karachi but does that mean the whole state is terrorist breeding ground? Where are we headed?? That’s rather ironic cause in our country itself we do have so many “extremists” who have caused the very same amount of pain and anguish what with the babri masjid, godhra (many of whom are yet to be booked and those who have been booked nothing much has really happened there….) but does that really make us the “entire “ nation an “extremist” “radical” nation that I doubt also the second thing that’s nearly eating into me right now is that why hasn’t anyone out there for once actually thought of analysing the recent raise in terror attacks as a developmental crisis why doesn’t anyone see it as a problem of inequity,
A problem of lack of opportunities, why is that we fail to see it as normal people (like you and me) pushed onto the brink of exploitation ,where the disparity between the classes seems to be widening with each passing day and there just no way out look at what green revolution did in our very own country ? in Punjab with the coming of green revolution the richer became richer and the poorer became poorer ,there was this increased level of frustration among the masses which obviously was channelized through the
Medium of terrorism ,look at north east ,Jammu and Kashmir the increasing insurgency , its later then that is giving a fundamentalist or a fanatic outlook (but the core issues remains the same that people take to it initially because of the appalling conditions of inequity ) , I personally don’t know how having better security is going to help cause honestly these kind of terrorist activity that we saw in Mumbai was high end command sort of technique never used before ,yes better security can definitely be used as a preventive measure but relying on it completely to do away with any such further attacks that I doubt will actually happen as long as we continue leaving in this globalized world ,where development is a part of this gobalized reality we will continue facing terror attacks only if we realize soon enough and awaken ourselves to the growing inequity and hopefully work towards finding a solution we just might be able to combat terror but finding that solution is never to easy but then again its not all that difficult either if only we make a start today if only……..

Friday, November 28, 2008

SOMETHING JUST DIED IN ME FOREVER…….

Terror strikes again that’s what almost all news channels and papers read ,loud and clear .But honestly why doesn’t it surprise me anymore, why don’t I feel scared ? why I have just failed to react to these headlines .
I guess people normally react in a certain way when they are confronted with a particular situation or scenario for the first time and they hope that their so called “reaction” would have an positive effect and even help in normalizing things soon enough but what does one did or how does one react when they are quiet literally “bomb arded” from all sides ,what with all the reassurances of security given continuously by our men in power, these long drawn debates held on the implementation of various laws or who is actually at fault (which quiet often just ends up in being yet another blame game wherein political parties use this as an excellent platform to bring out their personal prejudices ) or even the whole nation for that matter commending and applauding the so called Mumbai spirit (what Mumbai spirit I yet fail to understand ,when you have hungry mouths waiting to be fed ailing parents and bills to be paid do you have choice but just battle all odds and go to work, knowing very well that you just may not return and could very well be your last day but then only you know that you don’t have much of choice its more of question of choosing between the devil &the deep blue sea , but who is to understand your plight ? ) its all a dam farce , we have been through it before have lived through this ordeal and know very well that with tomorrow being yet another new day with even more interesting and happening news to feed on ,the so called “trauma” “plight” of the people so easily forgotten as though it never really happened .
Its only for people like us who have to continue fighting this battle all on our own ,I shudder to think that I could have been one of those dead out there that is the entire stretch that I use daily the same platform ,the very same cst-metro road ,colaba the paradise for collegians like us when it comes to flee market shopping its scary to just think what if I was there ……..
I just cannot stop going to these places, but things definitely would have changed for one I longer care a dam ,fail to react just about become numb as though some part of me dead forever and well carry my rosary around hoping that just in case I do fall prey to one of these attacks all I am hoping is that someone who does find my dead body does give me a decent burial .

Sunday, July 6, 2008

THE DELUSION OF EVOLUTION:

According to Charles Darwin, we all have evolved from the early apes to the current living beings we are today .In fact we have have empirical evidence to prove the fact that we have actually evolved .
Taking from this biological theory of evolution we have many social scientists and theorists who have applied the same perspective to various other social sciences i.e. used this theory of biological evolution to explain the social evolution of human species, they have tried to state that we all have evolved from the primitive to current stage of the civilized human being.
What’s really interesting to note then is that although we consider ourselves this superior species that are more civilized than the others, we certainly do not behave in a civilized manner, do we??
We have gone on to label or brand certain communities as primitive, savages, barbaric, backward (for e.g. the various tribal communities across the globe or even for that matter the third world nations) and we do take certain pride in calling ourselves the more modern civilized group from the rest (its been happening all along, all throughout history and its still continuing).
But what I seriously fail to understand is how do we really rate ourselves to be modern or the so called “civilized” is just because we are more techno savvy, given into the evils of industrialization and the chaotic process of urbanization that follows ? How do we really rate being modern on what barometers,does aping the western model of civilization mean we are more modern? For all you know the so called primitive societies may not follow our ways and means of modernization but does that really make them lesser civilized than us? That I doubt take a look around ,our modern ways of modernization doing us more harm than good look at the damage we doing to our environment (the freak weather changes, global warming …) and we just don’t seem to care instead we are producing nano cars which are to hit the markets soon.
That apart for all our talks on how very civilized we are , we indeed are more barbaric than the most so called primitive, savage societies what with wars ,violence ,riots ,crime all staring at us in our face .
Yet we take pride in calling ourselves civilized simply because we believe we are much more modern and developed from the rest , at a time when development is also the main cause of concern bringing along with it various other core issues like displacement ,poverty, hunger does just having a high GDP rate mean we really developed and is it then proof enough to say we are much more civilized ?
This trend is indeed alarming and its high time we take note before its to late ,yes we might have come a long way biologically (like Darwin says) but when it comes to socially speaking we still have a long way to go before we actually call ourselves evolved .

Friday, May 16, 2008

SO LONG FAREWELL , I HATE TO SAY GOODBYE......

Goodbyes r something that i am geniuely bad at , try as hard as i can to be strong yet a mere goodbye to some for me is the most dreadful thought ever, i just hate the word well now imagine this in normal circumstances when we do bid adieu to our loved ones we do so knowing they will return don't we ?,hoping beyond hope that theres always a next time But what if there is no next time........
its a scary thought indeed i agree that ceased to exist in mind till this very evening well i used to go this old age home "sharan" (thats the name of the place) well yes it started of as part of our social work credit for college but later i just fell in love with the inhabitants here ,i mean till a few weeks ago there were just uncle from 107 or the aunty from room 103 but gradually through the zillion gossip and carrom sessions, to the many walks we had in the garden to the random tv surfing we struck a bond , a bond which was a mixture of friendship,that of being a parent and even a grandparent at times its now when i look back i know what i have lost indeed it was the most incredible and special bond that ever existed , its at this very place i met some really "divine" souls but of all of them i was really close to santha aunty there was something about her that made you fall in love with her she was such a beautiful lady in every true sense of the word .
She intially did come across as very shy and reticent but few weeks into knowing aunty lol she gave me hard competition when it came to yakking (no kidding!) from her kids to grandkids , to remincing her good old days as a kid to her courtship days with her hubby to her love marriage to her first day at work we had yakked it all , then when we were left with no more past stories we zoomed into the present and future from today's tv serials to actors courting younger women to maritians we did that too....
just sitting there in her room watching the pitter patter of the rain seeing it cleanse the dirt laden grounds or just sitting in her room that chilly winter eveing wishing for hot cuppa of chai it was these little things that i will miss the most funny isn't it that day when i went to meet santha aunty she was very ill but she was exicted to see me after such a long time we chatted like long lost friends and then as i got up to leave and said the most dreaded goodbye i gave her big hug "knowing" she will recover soon after all santha aunty fallen ill before and recovered shes a fighter it didnt rouble me much well not until today (a good 2months since she passed away) when i went there again to see her was just dying to meet her , waiting to feel her motherly warmth just rushed into her room only to find someone else there wait, was this a mistake no how can it be this is the room?? these were the first thoughts in my mind it took me while to calm down and when i did the news of her death broken to me i just sat there lost and numb least expecting this i sat on her chair imaging her sit there and watch tv, all along was hoping was just a dream and santha aunty still alive and she would come in through that very door and hug me and ..............................
why does this happen?? when you least expected it , things won't be the same at sharan without her its difficult aunty knowing i will see you no longer but i promise to continue and meet many more incredible people like you my only regret is i didnt get to see for one last time and give you the biggest hug but then again am glad i didnt coz if i knew it was the last time am seeing you it would be even harder to say goodbye ,i will miss you aunty i certainly will.

Monday, May 12, 2008

AND THE MEMORIES LIVE ON

The last few days have simply been amazing, i have always read and even debated on the pro's and con's of rural life but come 1st May and there i was nestled in this serene little village called ambatha (which is around 100kms from nashik) ,and thats when it hit me real hard i mean debating and talking for hours on end about people living in these villages is one thing but actcually living that kind of life and experinicing it for yourself is totally other.I always thought i could manage but i nearly "freaked out" when i realized that there were no taps in the loos and bathrooms and we needed to draw water from this well , and there was water scarcity so we had to save the tiniest drop of water, yup the area we stayed had fans and lights its just that we never were really able to use them there were power cuts for 20-22 hrs a day .The firstday or two i must admit i was wondering what did i get myself into but come the third day it did not matter whether there was electricity or not , nor did it matter that we had to draw water in fact i fell in love with all of it not for once after that did i think it was difficult or uncomfortable.The most of all i fell in love with the kids (the aim of trip was to teach these tribal kids english they were in standard 10 and were studying in marathi medium) this trip has really made me think and think some more its brought some real worrying questions to mind like
firstly when we taught the kids and interacted with them i realized its not like they are dumb or that the don't know stuff they are equally good and smart its just that they have a real problem communicating their thoughts in english speak to them in marathi or hindi and you will be suprized the amount of gyaan they have , the language barrier does exist and thats where the whole problem lies and in a way it made me change my prespective towards certain things like intailly i would strongly feel that reservations at the grassroot levels (like schools,colleges ....)and all would help these kids and having reservations at a higher level won't really help true but then again has anyone thought that even reservations at the grassroot level wont help because even then the medium of education used would be "marathi" which makes it diffficult for the students to compete later and its not that they are incapable of competing they surely can but its coz of english they loose out is it fair??? after all come to think of it english is their third language , how many of us are fluent in our third language all throughout school and college life we have been comfortably conversing in english and then one fine day ask us to start conversing in marathi we feel restricted don't we? its intersting to note how differently we react to this language divide when we ourselves are not part of the picture.
the second thing is that we want development and change to happen throughout and yet on one level we want our villages to remain the same and not loose out their charm ? ironic isn't it , that apart we (urban india) have every right to move away to greener pastures for better opportunites and but when it comes to rural india and our villages we immediately begin to question why people migrate to cities? and even if they do how many them go back and try to change things and improve conditions back home how ridiculous can we get? not once does anyone question the intentions of the "urban elite" then why does it apply to the rural??
another very intresting thing was that this whole glamourized picture we (both of us the urban and the rural ) have of each other its fascinating in a way .
This trip has literally forced me to find answers and the serach continues , above all what i really loved about the trip was it just to an extent changed me as a person its truly made me realize its the smallest things in life that give bring you the ulitmate joy and happiness that money can nver buy like climbing trees,singing around the bonfire , learing to roll rotis and drawing water from the well ...... phew the list is endless indeed .
I have made a promise to myself to go back there someday having said that now am learning to move on and continue with my wonderful "soulful" journey living with the wonderful memories .

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

revisting childhood

"what will you do if i sang outta tune , will you stand up and walk out on me ??
lend me your ears and try to sing u a new song....." sounds familiar to millions of us out there doesnt it bring meomories ,makes you get all nostalgic all over again . "The wonder years","full house", "doogie howser","dawson's creek","small wonder","i dream of genie","sabrina.........,it just seems like yesterday there i was being this carefree kid , reliving my childhood through the eyes of kevin,paul,winnie,dj,steff,vicki,stacy..(charachters from the above mentioned soaps) revisiting those wonderful innocent days, where summer was all about pure fun and games,where everything was either black or white no room for grey ,everything seemed so plain and simple .
it was all about first crushes, heartbreaks,the never ending search to discovering the real "u" ,
the truimph of good over evil ,it was all about being a kid again or more like the journey of this kid ,it wasn't always simple i mean who ever said growing up was simple having been there (and still going through that phase) belive me it is anything but simple its crazy!!!!
but i must admit am glad that i havent totally lost out on that craziness revisting these serials take me back in time , back into bittersweet memories it keeps the flame of childhood still buring in me theres so much in there ,its like a link to my past or more like going back in this time machine and visiting all those places ,going back in time and reliving all those beautiful moments all over again its simply so beautiful ,so amazing its like i have a retrive a part of me .
years down the line its still something that brings a smile to my face ,i may have grown up (well atleast to the outside world i guess) but deep down inside theres this little kid that just wants to breakfree and just be a kid all over again , to be able to just dream and dream without having to be rational or logical to be able to soar high in the deep blue skies spreading her wings and just letting go .............. think about it theres this little kid in all of us actually wanting to just let go , just listen in and follow your heart come on its all about being a kid again its the most joyful experiences ever give it a shot

Monday, April 14, 2008

RESERVATIONS....

The heat on the whole reservation debate is on again , this time thanks to the SC verdict .Many in fact are applauding the SC verdict saying thats its "finally done justice" and given the OBC the much deserved reconginition by approving of 27% reservations for OBC'S ,whats really ironic is that the goverment of India has no proper defination who is an OBC also the grounds on which a person is decided to be an OBC is really very vague and ambigious. I and am sure even our polticians and the OBC brethen are as confused as i am on the whole concept of "other backward class" who is this "other" they talking about???
also given the fact that since there is no proper defination or guideline each state has different barometers to decide who is OBC , OBC in state may not necessarily be OBC in another .
Coming to the verdict itself frankly i feel its mere eyewash , the verdict does state that creme da la creme of the OBC'S certainly won't benefit (wonder how much of that will actcually happen!!)
and if it doesnt benefit them , then how will the goverment (even the SC for that matter) make sure it will reach those who deserve it (and in this case like i said earlier i am really confused and yet trying to figure out who is it that actaully deserves it then!!) . Funny isn't it the constituton doesnt fail to recognize the so called rights of the SC/ST/OBC'S but its failed to provide a through understanding of who these so called SC/ST/OBC'S are?? whats even more interesting is that no one seems to care least of all are politicans .
secondly, what really needs to be done is focus at the grassroot levels why isnt anyone (most of all the SC) not concerned about the non implementation of SSA (sarv sikhsha abhigyan) why isn't anyone of our so called "concerned minsiters " not concerned about the appalling conditions of the municipal schools . what about the various mid day meals schemes gone haywire? what about the standard and quality of education imparted? why isn't anyone concerned ???as a matter of fact, it is a matter of grave concern, its nice that they sunddenly paying attention to their education needs but inside of starting from top-down shouldn't it be the other way round?
reservations should help give you that intial push not make you totally dependent on them its like providing crutches to someone who is having a little difficulty walking !! Sounds bizarre and hiliarious i agree but thats exactly whats happening take a look around , this whole reservation debacle is nothing more than a political gimmick at the end of the day ( and more so now , as we nearing the polls)

Sunday, April 6, 2008

beauty pagents....

hmmmm there goes yet another PFMI (ponds femina miss india ) 08' , theres so much of coverage being given to the three charming ladies(not that i deny they are not charming!) whats even more bizarre is how certain sections belive that this pagent is all about giving them (the fairer sex) equal opportunites and a platform to realize their talent . Seriously am yet to hear something as firvolous as this puh-lease i mean out there you have people saying or more like ranting breathlessly that this pagent is all about celebrating womanhood,talent and "true beauty"... whats ironic is that the so called 21st century woman , a woman who is "supposed" to be on par with men well it is nothing but mere eyewash , these young women are made to belive that they given this great platform to showcase their talent(am yet to figure out what this talent is??) that apart whats even more annoying is that there is this over glamourization of their feminity dude am a woman so what ??
well at least for me i strongly feel that this so called pagent subtly tries to reinforce the gender sterotypes , even the so called women centric questions asked are anything but that ,its more a Subconscious way of telling them that " well, yes i agree and even applaud you for coming this far but dearie your still a woman and thats about it"
whats even more frustating is to the 28 starved souls battling it out for some ridiculous titles like , "Miss sexy legs", "Miss top 10", phew!! personally as a woman i seriously find it very demeaning to have your body be judged in such a way ,and to those who think there is nothing wrong good for you , you could probably join the bandwagon next year .........