TO DREAM OR NOT TO DREAM??

they say a man without dreams is like a bird without wings who can no longer fly, dreams hmmmmmmmmmm what would i have ever done without them??? to me dreams are my own little sheltered world, my private cocoon its wy out of the reach of the real world its "MY WORLD" and retrive to it at the drop of a hat
yeah my very own bizarre yet idealistic world wer there are my little freinds the obnoxious pixies,the adorable elves and the most loving fariy godmothers wat more can i ask for?? all of running around like carefree little souls ,letting the wild wildereness caress our tender skins , lettin the raindrops splash wid dat calm fervour while we continue to play hide n seek wid the goblins, or well its just me sitting high mountain top watching the crimson skies change color ,watching the birds enjoying their hurried journey back home there i sit whispering sweet nothings to the blooming flowers around me who now saying their last goodbyes for the nite .Ther i sit all alone welcoming the exuberant nite sky and her sparkling family there they come to give me company hmmmmmm and sit awestruck by her beauty or maybe there i am sitting near the stagnant stream wipping my heart out , hoping to heal my wounds and heal my scars alas!! the wounds are to way to deep so are the scars refusing to heal........., i try picking myself each time only to see myself falling dwn again keep staring at the blank reflection that just what if what if "he" came along and ......., well wat if could just run upto him and give him the biggest and warmest hug ever and just tell him that hav had this huge crush on him and totally crazy abt him forever i dunno wat it is or why i feel this way bt it werid and amazing hmmmm say its love who knws if it is so be it, well yeah its my own dream world i am happy here call me an escapist if you like i dun care its ony this plc that i can jst be me hmmm maybe its also the only plc i can hup 2 seek love and maybe proably the only plc am nt afraid of literally letting go of all my inhibitions and jst being able to love in my own way ,coz well the real world not for me or guess ppl like me its tough out ,there no denying that hmmmmm we are ppl we jst seek happiness thr these mere dreamz well for one i knw i have been hurt a zillion times befr and this is the only plc am sure wont be hurt ever again , its scary i mean the real world never relly accepts the "REAL U" its werid at least here its jst me n my my cretive imagination am free 2 do wat i like , wen i like and choose 2 fall in love and even live it widout any fear of rejection,hurt,pain hmmmmmmm wat more can i ask for??? aftr arent dreams made of this well guess couldnt really be complaining on dat so there i go again my eyes shut my fav track (u feel up my senses -john dever) playing in background and there i sit just starin blankly into my own world ,my eyes turn mosit once again there goes a tear drop .........and silently keep hoping that maybe just maybe someday he knws i exist!!

60 YRS.................????

yesterday whole of India was celebrating her 60th independence day ,60 long years we certainly have come a long way indeed or have way? I mean yes , now we all are one free nation enjoying are freedom but at what cost? we keep telling ourselves and the world that we fought and attained our freedom through non violent methods "ahimsa" but ironic isn’t the very bloodshed and violence we kept away from all along in the nth hour we resort to those very methods.Within a span of few days everything changed strange wasn’t it in this very land were people would just treat you as part of family irrespective of caste/religion, in a land were universal brotherhood wasn’t a distant reality but literally a part of life its here that these very so called humane people ran around slaughtering one another like butchers .The once civilized society was now turning to barbarism why? For what? All in the name of religion the very religion that talks about love,unity,peace.60 years hence things haven’t really changed has it?? We just need that one little outlet, one small incident just that one reason to turn barbaric again don't we? We at present are like calm still waters just waiting patiently to strike back all over again but like they say still waters indeed run deep.

THE RAINS ARE FINALLY HERE..................

As i there across my window i felt the little drizzle drops gently touch my face , it was so warm and soothing to just sit there and let the rain caress you in all its tenderness ,to just sit there and stare at the beautiful forked lighting change from deep purple to sliver and set the whole night sky ablaze was heavenly and listening to awful roar of thunder,the beat of the raindrops i was totally so awed by mother nature and her exquisite beauty.
my thoughts were interrupted when i saw these kids screaming for joy , running around enjoying the showers they were busy enjoying their little game of football, across the street the "bhutta" vendor was making brisk business,people simply walking down the street enjoying the lovely weather funny isnt it just a few hours ago this street was sunbaked and not a soul around but now its so full of life . Indeed the rains are finally here , and i went on to enjoying the rains sipping my garam coffee and welcoming mother nature in my own little way.

MUMBAI MERI JAAAAAAAAN....

Was barely a forthnight that i left my little city that I was despartely yearning to come back . The choatic lifestyle,the hustle-bustle of totally maddening city ,the rush hour traffic ,the noise, the crowds, the trains and most of all the people I seemed to be missing all of it.Sunddenly I was no longer travelling by trains it all was really quiet and peaceful no crowds nothing it was as though my otherwise crazy lifestyle had come to a complete standstill and all of sundden I had all the time in the world .
But werid as it may sound I still didn't enjoy myself (as I had imagined myself to), sunddenly all the peculiar sights and sounds of my city which otherwise would constantly crib about was something i was really looking forward to seeing once again yes ! indeed i was waiting to see the maddness,grime,chaos,vadapav/bhelpuri/panipuri wallas(that i would otherwise compeletly detest).
Funny isn't it even when i had the most beautiful beaches(that were really clean) ,a more serene and calm atmosphere and a very laidback relaxed lifestyle(all of which i always thought make an ideal holiday and something that I looked forward to) I still yearned for MUMBAI ,
and when was back in MUMBAI i constantly cribbed about its flaws well seriously" THIS IS MUMBAI YOU CAN'T LIVE WITH IT , AND YOU DEFINETLY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT OUT"

CRYSTAL WATERS.......

as i sat watching the reflection of setting sun in the water , seeing darkness gently set in intially its the lighter hues that gradually becoming darker. The water as still as ever , indeed for a moment i felt it was the reflection of the current happenings of my life , that had filled it it with complete darkness &yes i had given up all hope . I didnt see a way out i felt so lost just then my thoughts were interrupted when i saw the water sparkling (due to the streetlights around), it was so beautiful and it had such a soothing effect on me, its then that i realised even through the darkest hour one cannot give up so easily afterall like another things this to shall pass its only momentary .as i walked back home that night i felt strangely less burdened , also suprisingly it didnt take me long to stand up tackle my problems .I didnt feel so helpless any more it helped take some of the decisions which proably i wouldnt have done other wise , all i now know that i am at peace something that ceased to be with me for so long finally i can say its the end to a very long day indeed