revisting childhood

"what will you do if i sang outta tune , will you stand up and walk out on me ??
lend me your ears and try to sing u a new song....." sounds familiar to millions of us out there doesnt it bring meomories ,makes you get all nostalgic all over again . "The wonder years","full house", "doogie howser","dawson's creek","small wonder","i dream of genie","sabrina.........,it just seems like yesterday there i was being this carefree kid , reliving my childhood through the eyes of kevin,paul,winnie,dj,steff,vicki,stacy..(charachters from the above mentioned soaps) revisiting those wonderful innocent days, where summer was all about pure fun and games,where everything was either black or white no room for grey ,everything seemed so plain and simple .
it was all about first crushes, heartbreaks,the never ending search to discovering the real "u" ,
the truimph of good over evil ,it was all about being a kid again or more like the journey of this kid ,it wasn't always simple i mean who ever said growing up was simple having been there (and still going through that phase) belive me it is anything but simple its crazy!!!!
but i must admit am glad that i havent totally lost out on that craziness revisting these serials take me back in time , back into bittersweet memories it keeps the flame of childhood still buring in me theres so much in there ,its like a link to my past or more like going back in this time machine and visiting all those places ,going back in time and reliving all those beautiful moments all over again its simply so beautiful ,so amazing its like i have a retrive a part of me .
years down the line its still something that brings a smile to my face ,i may have grown up (well atleast to the outside world i guess) but deep down inside theres this little kid that just wants to breakfree and just be a kid all over again , to be able to just dream and dream without having to be rational or logical to be able to soar high in the deep blue skies spreading her wings and just letting go .............. think about it theres this little kid in all of us actually wanting to just let go , just listen in and follow your heart come on its all about being a kid again its the most joyful experiences ever give it a shot

RESERVATIONS....

The heat on the whole reservation debate is on again , this time thanks to the SC verdict .Many in fact are applauding the SC verdict saying thats its "finally done justice" and given the OBC the much deserved reconginition by approving of 27% reservations for OBC'S ,whats really ironic is that the goverment of India has no proper defination who is an OBC also the grounds on which a person is decided to be an OBC is really very vague and ambigious. I and am sure even our polticians and the OBC brethen are as confused as i am on the whole concept of "other backward class" who is this "other" they talking about???
also given the fact that since there is no proper defination or guideline each state has different barometers to decide who is OBC , OBC in state may not necessarily be OBC in another .
Coming to the verdict itself frankly i feel its mere eyewash , the verdict does state that creme da la creme of the OBC'S certainly won't benefit (wonder how much of that will actcually happen!!)
and if it doesnt benefit them , then how will the goverment (even the SC for that matter) make sure it will reach those who deserve it (and in this case like i said earlier i am really confused and yet trying to figure out who is it that actaully deserves it then!!) . Funny isn't it the constituton doesnt fail to recognize the so called rights of the SC/ST/OBC'S but its failed to provide a through understanding of who these so called SC/ST/OBC'S are?? whats even more interesting is that no one seems to care least of all are politicans .
secondly, what really needs to be done is focus at the grassroot levels why isnt anyone (most of all the SC) not concerned about the non implementation of SSA (sarv sikhsha abhigyan) why isn't anyone of our so called "concerned minsiters " not concerned about the appalling conditions of the municipal schools . what about the various mid day meals schemes gone haywire? what about the standard and quality of education imparted? why isn't anyone concerned ???as a matter of fact, it is a matter of grave concern, its nice that they sunddenly paying attention to their education needs but inside of starting from top-down shouldn't it be the other way round?
reservations should help give you that intial push not make you totally dependent on them its like providing crutches to someone who is having a little difficulty walking !! Sounds bizarre and hiliarious i agree but thats exactly whats happening take a look around , this whole reservation debacle is nothing more than a political gimmick at the end of the day ( and more so now , as we nearing the polls)

beauty pagents....

hmmmm there goes yet another PFMI (ponds femina miss india ) 08' , theres so much of coverage being given to the three charming ladies(not that i deny they are not charming!) whats even more bizarre is how certain sections belive that this pagent is all about giving them (the fairer sex) equal opportunites and a platform to realize their talent . Seriously am yet to hear something as firvolous as this puh-lease i mean out there you have people saying or more like ranting breathlessly that this pagent is all about celebrating womanhood,talent and "true beauty"... whats ironic is that the so called 21st century woman , a woman who is "supposed" to be on par with men well it is nothing but mere eyewash , these young women are made to belive that they given this great platform to showcase their talent(am yet to figure out what this talent is??) that apart whats even more annoying is that there is this over glamourization of their feminity dude am a woman so what ??
well at least for me i strongly feel that this so called pagent subtly tries to reinforce the gender sterotypes , even the so called women centric questions asked are anything but that ,its more a Subconscious way of telling them that " well, yes i agree and even applaud you for coming this far but dearie your still a woman and thats about it"
whats even more frustating is to the 28 starved souls battling it out for some ridiculous titles like , "Miss sexy legs", "Miss top 10", phew!! personally as a woman i seriously find it very demeaning to have your body be judged in such a way ,and to those who think there is nothing wrong good for you , you could probably join the bandwagon next year .........

TO DREAM OR NOT TO DREAM??

they say a man without dreams is like a bird without wings who can no longer fly, dreams hmmmmmmmmmm what would i have ever done without them??? to me dreams are my own little sheltered world, my private cocoon its wy out of the reach of the real world its "MY WORLD" and retrive to it at the drop of a hat
yeah my very own bizarre yet idealistic world wer there are my little freinds the obnoxious pixies,the adorable elves and the most loving fariy godmothers wat more can i ask for?? all of running around like carefree little souls ,letting the wild wildereness caress our tender skins , lettin the raindrops splash wid dat calm fervour while we continue to play hide n seek wid the goblins, or well its just me sitting high mountain top watching the crimson skies change color ,watching the birds enjoying their hurried journey back home there i sit whispering sweet nothings to the blooming flowers around me who now saying their last goodbyes for the nite .Ther i sit all alone welcoming the exuberant nite sky and her sparkling family there they come to give me company hmmmmmm and sit awestruck by her beauty or maybe there i am sitting near the stagnant stream wipping my heart out , hoping to heal my wounds and heal my scars alas!! the wounds are to way to deep so are the scars refusing to heal........., i try picking myself each time only to see myself falling dwn again keep staring at the blank reflection that just what if what if "he" came along and ......., well wat if could just run upto him and give him the biggest and warmest hug ever and just tell him that hav had this huge crush on him and totally crazy abt him forever i dunno wat it is or why i feel this way bt it werid and amazing hmmmm say its love who knws if it is so be it, well yeah its my own dream world i am happy here call me an escapist if you like i dun care its ony this plc that i can jst be me hmmm maybe its also the only plc i can hup 2 seek love and maybe proably the only plc am nt afraid of literally letting go of all my inhibitions and jst being able to love in my own way ,coz well the real world not for me or guess ppl like me its tough out ,there no denying that hmmmmm we are ppl we jst seek happiness thr these mere dreamz well for one i knw i have been hurt a zillion times befr and this is the only plc am sure wont be hurt ever again , its scary i mean the real world never relly accepts the "REAL U" its werid at least here its jst me n my my cretive imagination am free 2 do wat i like , wen i like and choose 2 fall in love and even live it widout any fear of rejection,hurt,pain hmmmmmmm wat more can i ask for??? aftr arent dreams made of this well guess couldnt really be complaining on dat so there i go again my eyes shut my fav track (u feel up my senses -john dever) playing in background and there i sit just starin blankly into my own world ,my eyes turn mosit once again there goes a tear drop .........and silently keep hoping that maybe just maybe someday he knws i exist!!

60 YRS.................????

yesterday whole of India was celebrating her 60th independence day ,60 long years we certainly have come a long way indeed or have way? I mean yes , now we all are one free nation enjoying are freedom but at what cost? we keep telling ourselves and the world that we fought and attained our freedom through non violent methods "ahimsa" but ironic isn’t the very bloodshed and violence we kept away from all along in the nth hour we resort to those very methods.Within a span of few days everything changed strange wasn’t it in this very land were people would just treat you as part of family irrespective of caste/religion, in a land were universal brotherhood wasn’t a distant reality but literally a part of life its here that these very so called humane people ran around slaughtering one another like butchers .The once civilized society was now turning to barbarism why? For what? All in the name of religion the very religion that talks about love,unity,peace.60 years hence things haven’t really changed has it?? We just need that one little outlet, one small incident just that one reason to turn barbaric again don't we? We at present are like calm still waters just waiting patiently to strike back all over again but like they say still waters indeed run deep.

THE RAINS ARE FINALLY HERE..................

As i there across my window i felt the little drizzle drops gently touch my face , it was so warm and soothing to just sit there and let the rain caress you in all its tenderness ,to just sit there and stare at the beautiful forked lighting change from deep purple to sliver and set the whole night sky ablaze was heavenly and listening to awful roar of thunder,the beat of the raindrops i was totally so awed by mother nature and her exquisite beauty.
my thoughts were interrupted when i saw these kids screaming for joy , running around enjoying the showers they were busy enjoying their little game of football, across the street the "bhutta" vendor was making brisk business,people simply walking down the street enjoying the lovely weather funny isnt it just a few hours ago this street was sunbaked and not a soul around but now its so full of life . Indeed the rains are finally here , and i went on to enjoying the rains sipping my garam coffee and welcoming mother nature in my own little way.

MUMBAI MERI JAAAAAAAAN....

Was barely a forthnight that i left my little city that I was despartely yearning to come back . The choatic lifestyle,the hustle-bustle of totally maddening city ,the rush hour traffic ,the noise, the crowds, the trains and most of all the people I seemed to be missing all of it.Sunddenly I was no longer travelling by trains it all was really quiet and peaceful no crowds nothing it was as though my otherwise crazy lifestyle had come to a complete standstill and all of sundden I had all the time in the world .
But werid as it may sound I still didn't enjoy myself (as I had imagined myself to), sunddenly all the peculiar sights and sounds of my city which otherwise would constantly crib about was something i was really looking forward to seeing once again yes ! indeed i was waiting to see the maddness,grime,chaos,vadapav/bhelpuri/panipuri wallas(that i would otherwise compeletly detest).
Funny isn't it even when i had the most beautiful beaches(that were really clean) ,a more serene and calm atmosphere and a very laidback relaxed lifestyle(all of which i always thought make an ideal holiday and something that I looked forward to) I still yearned for MUMBAI ,
and when was back in MUMBAI i constantly cribbed about its flaws well seriously" THIS IS MUMBAI YOU CAN'T LIVE WITH IT , AND YOU DEFINETLY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT OUT"